Week 13 - Day 103

The Xena Project
Week 13
Days without sugar: 33

The Xena Project is three months old now. The no-sugar decision is one month gone and eleven to come. When the Xena Project began, I boasted that I would disappear before people's very eyes. 'You won't even see me when I turn sideways!' I proclaimed. Three months in, this is hardly the case. The goals have changed a little. I'm more interested in bounding up the stairs without catching my breath and in doing pushups on my toes than I am about dropping dress sizes. Still, there's no denying it anymore, the Xena Project failed.

I set out to prove that the padding would fall away if I just started taking better care of myself. No diets, no gimmicks, just good food and a bit of exercise. Sure, some if it did fall away. The only problem is that I achieved half my goal in twice the time and using three times the effort it took last year.

I'm not dropping the project. It's now more of a lifestyle than a particular goal. I'm healthier than I've ever been. I'm just disappointed that I'll have to resort to gimmicks and strange eating patterns to get the result I want. I feel disillusioned and disappointed. It's like hearing a preacher say that God doesn't satisfy quite like a snickers bar or finding out that Michael Schumacher can't parallel park. How can I admit to you all that healthy eating and exercise just doesn't cut it?